My Call To Carmel

   My story begins when I was 12 years old. That's when I had my conversion. I had found that God was my true father. Here is a little background about my conversion. 

Like I said I had my conversion when I was 12 years old. When I was 12 I was always looking for something to make me happy.  And  I later found out the it was God. One day I was in my brother's room and he was talking about God and how loving he was. And how if you except God into your heart you would be saved. So I asked God into my heart later that night. At that time I became Christian if you want to put a name on it. But to tell you the truth "Christian's" are not what I was searching for, it was not fulfilling to me. I would always watch the Catholic channel  (EWTN) and the Christian channel (TBN). But I always found myself going back to EWTN . One day I just decided that I wanted to become Catholic. And I am telling you a week after that God gave me the call to religious life.     I'll tell you a little about how God called me before I was even Catholic. One day I was walking by the tv, my mind was still set on what I was going to do with my life (still only 12). Mother Angelica was on the tv praying with her nuns and I walked back and just looked at the tv and I realized that God wanted me to be a nun. At first I wanted to be a Poor Clare like Mother Angelica , but that only lasted for 1 year, till I watched the St. Teresa of the Andes movie. That is why I love her (St. Teresa of the Andes) so much because she showed me that I was not called to be a Poor Clare but to be a Carmelite, to walk hand and hand with our Lord in that desert we call Carmel.                   

       Now I want to tell how I got accepted into Carmel.
When I was 16 I was allowed to start writing to nuns. As you all know I wanted to join the Brooklyn Carmelite's. They asked to wait 5 years before I could join their convent. I was going to wait ,but that didn't mean that I couldn't contact other Carmel's in the mean time. To be honest with you I was going  crazy because none of the Carmelite's that I wrote to wanted to hear me out. They thought that I was to young or didn't think that I had enough experience in the church. But remember that I have been experiencing the faith since I was 12 years old. When I became Catholic I felt like a cradle Catholic. That was one thing about Cristo Rey, they listened to everything  that I had to say. They wanted to help guide me. When I first contacted  Cristo Rey I was thinking that they would tell me I had to wait 3 to 5 years. But when I got a phone call from Sr. Mary of the Sacred Heart it gave me a real chance to talk about things I really couldn't talk about to other communities. Sr. Mary told me the first time that I didn't have to wait 3 to 5 years because they want to give every woman a chance. Waiting 3 to 5 years can make a woman lose her vocation. When she told me that over the phone I just wanted to scream because I was so happy. About a week later I called Sr. Mary and she told me that all I needed was the required information. She even said that I could join this year if things worked out according to plans. So now I have enrolled in a GED class and
about 1 week ago Sr. Mary called me to tell me that they had a Chapter Meeting. Prior to that I talked to the SubPrioress M. Elizabeth and we had a wonderful talk. So about a week after that talk I had with M. Elizabeth I was informed that I was excepted into the community.